Im struggling to write this post

“On days when humans are blind with hatred for their neighbors, justifying their violence and silencing the goodness in themselves to inflict harm… the flowers breathe in the pain of the victim and the perpetrator. They transmute the darkest parts of humanity into pure light and beauty. They are our partners in peace.Thank you flowers, we love you 🙏”

― Jasmine Richardson
 

hi everyone,

i have been struggling to write this post because i have been struggling to let myself go towards the pain of what is happening in the middle east. can't i just write a freakin email about an acupuncture point? 

i have been avoiding the news, i'm barely on social media. i don't want to look. i don't want to see. i don't want to be witness to the hatred and the violence. it feels too great for my soul to bear. 

and at the same time i feel like it's vitally important i know what is happening. 

to see it, to connect with others, to love others and love myself,  to be kind to others and be kind to myself, to care for others and care for myself.

i do not know how to write this. i just want to let you know. there are tear trails on my cheeks. there is pain in my heart. honestly, i just want to write about an acupuncture point. i really do. but i can't. 

i'm so sorry this is happening. i'm so sorry for the pain. for the pain that we can see and for the pain that we cannot see. i'm sorry for everyone's pain. im sorry. 

what can i do?

 i can write this email. 

i can connect with you, my beloved community. 

i can restore and foster relationships. 

i can communicate.  

i can fact check my beliefs and my biases about myself and others. 

i can find my own inner hidden hurt and care for it.

i can find my ancestral pain and care for it. 

i can love more.

i can appreciate diversity more. 

i can honor my brothers and sisters and siblings from all walks of life more. 

i can apologize for hurting others.

i can ask for forgiveness. 

right now this is what I can do. even though i'm really not sure if its enough. 

i can weep. i can grieve. 

i can weep with you. i can grieve with you.

the pain is too great to bear on my own. 

but we can bear it together, with each other.

we can bear it with the flowers and the trees.

we can bear it with and the stones and the stars.

You are all in my heart,

Lance ❤️

p.s here's a good acupuncture point i've written about to help when you are feeling grief and despair. → Lung 9 Very Great Abyss